Sweet Ariel

[06 Sep 2005|10:37am]
[ mood | drained ]

There was a boy who I liked. He liked me too,well that's what I was told...but one day I was walking to class and I heard someone call my name when I turned around he was there...

"Wait up!" he called.

I waited for a few seconds and let him catch up then once he did I started walking again.

"You need something?" I asked
"Yea... a favor." he said.
"Sure what is it?" I asked.
"Go out with me." he said with a gleam in his eyes.
"ok... sure."I said secretly jumping with joy in my mind.

He walked me to class and kissed me good bye...then the late bell rang and he sprung down the hall to get to class. He walked me to class every day and Kissed me every day and he was with me every chance he got. Then days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months and months turned into a year and he still ran to catch up with me. It was the day of our one year anniversary and he walked me to class gave me a box and a kiss...then he whispered into my ear..."I love you." then he left. I opened the gift and it was a ring...a gorgeous ring. That night we were out at dinner to celebrate and all he surprised me...AGAIN...

"You know how I said that I loved you?"he asked
"yea?" I got really nervous....
"I really do you know I love you."

I didn't say anything and I knew he wanted me to say it but I didn't want to seem stupid so I stuffed food in my mouth and he didn't say anything but I could tell he was disapointed. We got done eating and he was driving me home at the red light he turned and looked at me...

"Why won't you say you love me? don't you love me like I love you?" he asked,

I didn't know what to say I loved him more than I could imagine but I just didn't know how or when to say it...


BOOM!!!!!!!!!! a semi had hit the driver side and rammed us right into a lake.The next day I was in the hospital and all I could think about was if he was ok...so I got out of my bed and searched for him...but when I found him he was barely alive...seeing the one I loved near death made me drop to my knees and cry...

"I love you...I've loved you since the first day we met. I love you soooo much don't you leave me please don't leave me I need you here...I LOVE YOU!!!!"

With his very last breath he said...

"I love you too." then he was gone.

A week later I was able to go home but I wasn't ready to face school yet and my mom understood. I went up to my room and I found a note inside the ring box....

"I hope you like this ring. It was my grandma's she told me to give it to the one I love and well I love you. No matter what happens to me I will always love you. If I died today I want to die knowing you love me...I won't leave this earth without knowing you love me. You're always in my heart forever until the day I die.

p.s. I love you now...I will love you forever."







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[06 Jun 2005|06:00pm]
Hot Damn!!!
Dear good good, you got 36
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[28 May 2005|12:57am]
[ mood | crappy ]

Its funny how trust works, you have it there and think it means something. Then when it’s broken, so are you. I mean something seemingly small to one person is tragic to another, how is that so?

I mean we all know Nire is overly emotional as it is, don’t get me wrong I’m not in any type of denial here, but when you ask someone you trust so much to not do something, something that your not ready for and they do anyway…..that effects you in a serious way.

Now I’m in a confusion, my mind doesn’t wanna think about it, my eyes just wanna cry, my stomach is all weird and I’m just at a blah right now. It’s a feeling I don’t think I have had before. I’m just, I don’t know so thrown off right now I can’t even think about things close to it. I tried to do some RP, get my mind off and most of it reminded me of it and my eyes got that watery feeling again and I had to by pass it.

I know I’m not saying anything about what happened and with who, kinda want it kept that way. Not really sure why I am writing here, I haven’t in months but I needed to get it out. I thought maybe it would help but not really. I dunno, I’m just tired and need to rest, insomnia is getting bad and sleeping through the night would be fun.

I need to get out of my parents house, I don’t like being here anymore, my dad cusses at me now, he never used to even raise his voice to me till recently. Everything I thought about my dad is different now, I am finding out more and more as I get older and I don’t like it. I have based myself towards being like him and now look at what I find out, I don’t want to be like that. He is a good man, don’t get me wrong, but I don’t wanna be like him and I am VERY against a father cursing towards his daughter, I don’t care who you are its just not right.

I’ll be 19 in July, I am saving up money as best I can right now and Sammy was talking to me about an apartment. Sounds way nice but the cash isn’t there yet, Mike offered to help pay but he’s done so much for me as it is I don’t wanna take anything else. I think I might just tough out a year here with my dad and wait for Mike to get out of school then hopefully get a place with him, we are on 9 months now btw. I don’t know what our plans are, he doesn’t know if he is going to college or not and I don’t know what I wanna do with my life.

I don’t have many options, I mean I could if I tried but I dropped out and got my GED, common sense says I’m not going to college or anything just to get back into the place I left, hello but so not me. Mike doesn’t want me to work once we are together, like if we get married (hoping, I can actually see myself with him) but I don’t know if I could be a stay at home wife, lol. Too much A.D.D for all that right?

Okay well I think that I have babbled on enough for one day, sorry to bore you all if anyone actually read all of this but I needed to get it out and well, lets hope this helps. Love and kisses to all


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[29 Apr 2005|02:47pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

this couldnt be anymore right

Your Birthdate: July 12

Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.

The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.

There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.

Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.

You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.

Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about.

You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive.

You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

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warning, but yay mike [23 Mar 2005|02:02am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Got professional pictures taken with my boy, step mom and cousin

Lots of pics behind the cut, about 36 so just a warning : )

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[10 Mar 2005|11:38pm]
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[07 Feb 2005|11:59pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Minor friends list cut

comment to be re added if you want and i prob well, may make more when its not midnight, if i do i'll post again

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[06 Feb 2005|10:28am]
[ mood | crushed ]

My father is so busy playing father to everyone else that he doesn’t realize how much he hurt me.

I finally have a weekend off that im not sick, I wanted to spend the day with him cause I barely ever see him, and when he is home I’m usually just online.
So now where is he you ask??

He took my cousin Kevin to the track for the day.

He plays father to my cousins EVERY weekend, yes okay their father is a fat ass loser that makes everyone around him more then miserable and he isn’t fit for the father title.
But gimme a break, I’d like to see my dad once in a while as well

Maybe I’m selfish but whatever, I wanna spend time with him too. Kevin would understand one weekend of not seeing MY DAD. But no, me saying all of that to dad means nothing.

So here I sit, no work to go to, dad less and very upset. Does anyone see that? Nor care?? Hello, but no.

So I’m probably going to go to the movies with my step mom and Victoria. Woo.

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[18 Jan 2005|12:10am]
[ mood | crazy ]

My boy got a dog, SO VERY CUTE!

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[17 Jan 2005|07:10am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005

During the outage I regained vision in my right eye.

What did you do?

Brought to you by geek-foo

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[12 Dec 2004|11:55pm]
[ mood | giggly ]


PLEASE respond to this, WAY need your help and i dont know your new aim name, ppplllleeeaaassseeee


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[03 Dec 2004|10:41am]
[ mood | chipper ]

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

Everyones doing it so, so am I!!!!!!!

so shoo, go take it or may death befall you -giggles-

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[28 Nov 2004|02:07am]
[ mood | crushed ]

I’m numb, fucking numb and I don’t know what to do.
I musta really pissed someone off to get this; I mean really piss them off.
The happy? Gone. Shattered. Ripped away.
The empty shock filling its place, the one I want to call, unavailable as usual.
The ones I didn’t expect, here for me like always.
What to do besides cry? Hell if I know.
So here I sit, trying to cope, make that big decision, clueless, scared.
And all I can do is cry, sleep? Won’t happen, tried to eat, made me sick at the thought.

[21 Nov 2004|04:01pm]
[ mood | determined ]

The new car yay me

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[06 Nov 2004|08:05pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

You're in Love! Now Don't Ditch Your Friends!

Someone sent me to a site about something but this happened to catch my eye while i was there, this is how i feel right now so i figured i'd put it up, i'll lj-cut for the length of it

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[22 Oct 2004|12:25am]
[ mood | loved ]

Tis Nires 2 month ani with Mike, send the love!!!!!
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[24 Sep 2004|03:13pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Your LJ Prison by redfrog021
Favorite Deadly Sin
You are convicted ofStalking the Hobbitses
And sentenced to2 years
Abusive redneck guardsway3224
Easy to bribe guardozdwolf
Wants to make you their bitchforgivemethis
Drops soap in the shower on purposefireatwill1704
Works in the laundry and smells people's undiesaladriana
Comes to see you for 'conjugal visits'nascarhat
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[05 Sep 2004|03:54pm]
[ mood | angry ]

Hey everyone, i apologize now for grammer and such but you have to deal, no time or space to do this right, at another house.

Power is out all over, hurricane hit pretty bad, god knows what my house looks like and really im scared to go home and find out.
Powers been out for a few days and it really doesnt look like it well be coming back anytime soon.
My family and Sammy are alright and thats all that matters to me.
been at familys house in Fort Lauderdale, we didnt get too much of the storm but we got it good enough, roof in the bathroom caved in, on the kity but Oz is alright.

ummm....okay i really am in no frame of mind to do a nice post, just had a chance to go on so i took it and yeah.

to all of my RPG peoples, i dont know whats going to happen with me, I well get on as soon as possible. I dont know when the electric well get back on so duh, i cant use internet.

i well make random trips to the library if need be and i well try and get posts up when i do, please understand that the hurricane hit right on my county and i need to deal with RL issues before i can deal with everything else. If you have to boot me then so be, sorry for not being able to and all, just please e-mail me telling me or comment or soemthing so i know.

love and cookies to all muah

i hops everyone in florida is alright, luke, will, red, nora, and who else, please comment and let me know you all are alright.

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[15 Aug 2004|11:54pm]

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[09 Aug 2004|10:35am]
Here is Veruca everyone.

Pics are a pic blurry cause she moves too much for my digi cam and i just got it so i dont really knpw how to use it yet

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